Four and a half years later, I have finished my degree.
Mostly, I’m just really tired and looking forward to a good night’s sleep. I don’t think that it’s really hit me yet that university is over.
So, I turned 29.
And I finished my last Semester 2 as an undergrad.
I’m not sure which makes me more nervous, to be completely honest. The last assessment for my first semester project nearly killed me, I swear. I think, all up, it had to be 30,000 words, and took me until 3am to finalise. And then 10 minutes before I was going to present? I got an approval for an extension due to illness. I went ahead and did it anyway, because no. I did not want to wait another week with it hanging over my head.
I think I left my body during it, actually. But it’s done. And I can’t have screwed it up too badly. I don’t think.
My birthday was on November 7th, and a very quiet day. Mum came down and we had an amazing lunch, and Mum brought me some small gifts. The rest of my gifts (most of which are books! ) and my official birthday cake will occur when Mum and I can coordinate (pizza, salad, champagne and cake!)
Right now, I’m taking ten days off to relax – something I sorely need to do. Maybe write some bad fan fiction, and do some bad fanart? Something with no academic or profitable value
It’s been a very long, and very short, month.
The last two weeks, I had to present my plan for my honours year (a YA story), a backup essay, and a group-presentation in another class. I used to be the queen of the last-minute dash. All-nighters were a breeze. This semester? I’m relatively organized, and haven’t had to pull any all-nighters, but the stress of so much of my academic future weighing me down resulted in my jaw swelling, and my neck twisting up so badly, that I needed an emergency dental appointment (complete with x-rays) and three trips to the physio to unknot my neck.
Is this me getting old? Or am I finally taking my academics seriously enough to do myself harm?
As terrible as it is, I prefer the latter. I’m only twenty-eight!
So, I’ve been at my mum’s for the week – I don’t have a dentist or physio in Sydney – and heading back to Sydney tomorrow. It’s lucky that my classes last week were flexible, though I was sick enough that I would have come home anyway. But yes, back to Sydney tomorrow. I’m looking forward to Sunday more, though – after a trip to Apple to replace a busted charger, there’s a little shopping to be done, and then I’m finally going to go see Suicide Squad. By myself, sadly, but my sister is busy (and has the flu), and none of my friends have a burning desire to see Suicide Squad. I actually enjoy going to the movies alone.
And on Thursday night, I have tickets to Allen and Unwin’s YAFest evening – hoping to get some of my books autographed by the guest authors, and have lots of fun (book-themed manicures! Chocolate! Books!)
Tragically, I still have to update my phone, update my mum’s phone, pack my suitcase, have a shower, and wash up before bedtime, so I’m off to snag some of mum’s chocolate cake and get started.
I honestly do not know whether I’d give this up if I got a book deal.
NanoWrimo 2012 is over, and I crossed the line at about 6pm tonight, with a word count of 50,298.
As you can see, NaBloPoMo definitely slipped by the wayside, but on my list of priorities, NanoWrimo beat NaBloPoMo. Aspiring YA author and all
The heat today – around 35 degrees – did try to kill me, my writing efforts and my poor Mac, but we got through. I’m actually kind of flat now that I’ve hit 50,000 words. Like, I expected something else. I know I’m not happy with a lot of the scenes in my book – it’s merely a patchwork of the most important aspects, written in two different points of view. I need to find a giant cork or white board, now, and rewrite the structure and outline, and just chip away at getting the whole story down.
I’m pretty proud of it, actually. It’s YA fantasy with a dash of romance (literally, like three chapters from the end is the first romantic hint) and no freakin’ love triangles. It’s going to be awesome when it is actually finished and a proper book. I can’t wait.
But now Nano is over, I get my life back! Tomorrow’s plan? Cleaning! I literally have a pile of stuff on my floor in front of my bookcases – art supplies, sketchbooks, pens, power cords – that has to be sorted from my trip to Sydney, plus a chair full of clothes that needed to be folded and put away; a wardrobe that has clothes and shoes falling everywhere, at least a small army of socks under my bed and just things everywhere. Every time I thought about tidying up, I sat down and wrote.
Other than a cleaning blitz, I have emails to send, semi-hysterical fan fiction to write, blog entries about Sydney and my uni interview to write, drawings to compose and a dozen other things I’ve forgotten.
Right now, instead of researching and tapping away at Ultraviolet, I’m off to snuggle into bed (as in, kick off all the sheets and drag my fan so close to the bed that it might as well just climb in next to me) with the iPad and read fan fiction, because as far as I’m concerned, December started as soon as I validated my novel!
Oh dear god. What the freaking hell, November? As if you aren’t enough of an asshole, with NanoWrimo dominating, year after year. This November is ridiculous.
So, I have NanoWrimo to write, daily, especially since the gap between the word goal and my advance has closed over the weekend. I’m maybe 900 words ahead of the official goal. The I have my art school interview, so I have to print and mount my portfolio today and tomorrow. We leave for Sydney Thursday afternoon (which actually pissed me off; I was hoping to get up there early, but once again, everyone else takes priorities over me. Ugh), and return Friday sometime. Plus I am actively trying to get a Christmas job which, quite frankly, is going terribly.
Then combine that with my usual internet and person commitments (1.5 hours at the gym or training every single day, Neopets, Deviantart and my favourite trading card game just reopened online, and various writing commitments I’ve made) and the things on break (written-word.org, Livejournal, all my fan fiction, twitter) plus uni and general life stuff, I am just so… screwed. Seriously.
I absolutely know that next year, I’m going to have to prioritise everything, but I loathe to think what I’ll have to give up, since I really love doing everything on my list. It’s just… there are only so many hours in a day!
Anyway, before Thursday, I have to
– print and mount my work for my portfolio
– pack my suitcase
– hit 35.5k on NanoWrimo
– tidy up my room so it’s not a bomb site when I get home from Sydney
Seriously. I have no idea when I’m going to get everything done.
So, I had a meeting with one of my mother’s friends today. T is an HSC art teacher, which means that she helps students, every year, to compile their portfolios for university, and she was nice enough to look over mine for me.
I was so, so worried that she’d flip through my books and tell me that I needed to pull some new stuff out of nowhere in the next five days – still life works (which I loathe, they are so boring) and such. But T was so nice – she gave me some amazing advice and suggestions, plus helped me identify the sort of works I should be presenting. I’m only allowed to present ten, but I’ve found a way to arrange my examples to put the most and best possible examples forward.
They will be a total bitch to transport on the train, though.
I’ve also got a plan. If the worst happens and I don’t get into either university, the Tafe has some amazing graphic design and art courses that many high school teachers recommend for high school students wanting to go into visual arts degree, as a way to be taught the skills, as well as getting university credit. So, I’d spend next year at Tafe, working, writing my novel and maybe trying to get a small business of hand drawn cards going.
And I was sticky-beaking at the Sydney Uni website, and they have some amazing stuff going on. It’s actually kind of exciting, honestly. There are clubs for every possible thing – Disney-fans, costume-fans, two clubs for cocktail afficianados – plus two magazines, a campus one and a yearly-literature magazine. I definitely want to get involved, if I get in.
And on Saturday, I’m going to Sydney to the Open Day and portfolio review (and maybe, just possibly, duck into Gorman to try on some shoes I can’t afford this week
At least now I’m feeling a little more confident about my chances of getting in based on my portfolio. My formal interview is one week today. I can totally do this.
(And 29, 365 words. Bamf.)
As of tonight (about ten minutes ago!), I’ve made it halfway through NanoWrimo 2012! And I’ve learnt two very, very important things.
One, is that I’m estimating this story, completed, will hit around the 150-200,ooo word mark. I expected that, since most entry-level chapter books are 50,000 words. I’m both shocked and not, if that makes sense. I knew the story would take a lot of words to tell, it’s that sort of story. But 200,000 words is just such an investment of time, and devoting. I’ll absolutely do it, but at 27,000 words right now, that just feels enormous and incomprehensible.
The second things I’ve learnt is that, wow, the rewriting that this is going to need. I’m going to look for a massive white board or corkboard online – probably Craigslist or something like that, so I can plot it out in massive blocks, and rework the smaller plot threads. Plus, I wrote a partial overview of the entire story, and enough scene outlines to get me through NanoWrimo, but the entire overview and a proper chapter guide need to be done and finalised for me to make this book everything it can be.
It’s actually kind of exciting.
I won’t get a lot written tomorrow, since I have a meeting with a friend of my mother’s who happens to be an HSC art teacher, and has very kindly offered to look over my portfolio for uni – my interview is a week tomorrow, yikes! -and I need to organise all the work I want her to look at. Plus on Saturday, I’m going to the university for a Portfolio Preparation and Tour Day with my sister for some last minute clarification and guidance. Plus, you know, see the university I might end up at next year!
I have this weird thing, where I have invisible barriers that keep me safe from things that are happening.
i know, it sounds crazy. But just listen. It’s like, my major barrier before Real Life kicks in (getting into Uni, moving to Sydney by myself et al) is Christmas. And Christmas is still effectively ages away, huffah! Plus, I have tons of little ones leading up to Christmas. So magically, by the time I’m faced with Real Life, I’ll be ready for it and everything will have fallen into place. I know that’s complete garbage, but it’s how I work.
My birthday was a barrier to my Day of Reckoning – my Interview and Portfolio Presentation at one of the universities I’ve applied at. Oh dear god, Yikes. i have to pick out ten pieces of my artwork and present them to a panel of lecturers – who will be MY lecturers if I get in next year – and convince them that I am someone they should let in.
My interview day is November 23. And all I can think is how much I have to do. I have buckets of art I need to go through and decide whether or not to include, I want to do some new stuff, I have to get my damn scanner working (HP Multifunctions suck, fyi. Brand new and the scanner refuses to connect to the computer), and I really want to get two copies professionally bound at the local print store. I also need to work out what I’m wearing, even though I think I have a pretty good idea (a skirt my mother made me with fabric from Liberty, a pink gap top, pink Bloch ballet flats and my newest bright pink handbag I still need to work out what to do/wear with my hair and jewellery. My sister, who is about to graduate from this university, said that the panel are reasonably conservative, so I’m trying to look nice but memorable.)
Plus, there’s a Portfolio Preparation day on next Saturday that I am hoping to go up for, if I can come up with the money (train tickets, lunch et al), plus I have to work out how much stuff to lug up on the train. I’m seriously considering one display folder and my mother’s iPad with the rest, otherwise it will be too bulky and awkward to carry around all day.
If you follow me on Instagram, you’ve probably seen a lot of my art pop up lately. I’ll start posting some here as well, just to motivate me. Plus, I have NanoWrimo to work on (500 more words until 20k, and then I can go and play my newest Sims expansion!), take photographs of our newest family member who is so gosh darn cute that it’s more of a chore not to take photos, keep training, keep blogging, keep cleaning and find a job… whilst trying so, so hard to get into University again.
Oh god, I am so screwed.
Today was my last day as a twenty-four year old.
That is crazy. I feel exactly the same as I did at twenty-two. God, twenty-five. I feel old and like I’m running out of time but I’m only twenty-five. Is this how everyone feels? That they turn around one day and BAM, feel like time has just evaporated? That all those mundane things you do every single day add up to years and years?
That’s about as philosophical as I get. Sometimes it’s hard to distinguish between feelings and thoughts that are totally normal and feelings and thoughts that are because of my anxiety. Mostly it’s just plain noisy in my head.
I was actually very productive for my last day as twenty-four year old. Perhaps I’ve finally evolved to be fastidious and neat? A shame I still seem to be a complete paper hoarder. Seriously, I refuse to throw out even the tiniest or oldest drawing. But a massive spring clean was in order for the day – one enormous bag of garbage, and everything has been dusted, organised. It’s… actually kind of creepy.
I also got another 2,000 words of my Nanowrimo done. I’m hoping to get at least another 1,000 words done tonight. Other than that, I’ve got an episode of Criminal Minds and some art to upload to Deviantart. I’m hardcore, aren’t I?
I feel like I should write something deep, to remember twenty-four when I’m reading this blog in years to come. Twenty four: the year before you went to Sydney. After being sick for four months and two hospital visits, you’re okay with no real reason. Er, it might be because your father lived at home all year. Mia finished uni. You lost Dominic and Molly. Mia got Mabel. You love, love, loved The Legend of Korra. Your art sucked less this year than ever before. You started your giant directory of future book ideas. You read a lot of books – good ones, bad ones and offensive ones. You start cooking lessons. You loved Marissa Meyer’s Cinder, Kendare Blake’s Anna Dressed in Blood and Girl from Nightmares, Laini Taylor’s Daughter of Smoke and Bone, and you finally finished Lemony Snicket’s Series of Unfortunate Events.
So long, twenty-four. I liked you okay and I’m sorry you have to go. You taught me stuff that’s useful but some things happened that… well, sucked. Put a good word in for me with twenty-five, okay?
NanoWrimo Word Count: 12,077/50,000
So, I turn twenty five on Wednesday – or as I prefer to think of it, the fourth anniversary of my twenty-first birthday :oops:. And I have this weird thing where, on my birthday, certain things have to be perfect. Like my personal grooming (aka, my eyebrows have been beautifully waxed and shaped), my outfit (being washed and pressed tomorrow) and my bedroom.
Oh god, my bedroom.
It’s not that I’m a messy person, it’s that I have minimal storage. I was days away from putting my new wardrobe and chest of drawers on lay-buy when we hit a budget crisis, so nothing has really changed. My room is utter chaos – I write and I draw, so there is always paper everywhere, plus I have books everywhere and… well, all the debris of being a girl, a nerd, a student, a writer, a reader and an illustrator.
So, I moved my TV and printer to the chest next to my bed that I store my winter clothing in, and added an extra shelf to one of my bookcases. Two EXTRA shelves of storage! Two extra shelves to display my things! It’s just glorious . Except, then I had to play bookcase Tetris. It’s a very delicate ecosystem of where everything fits. And other than a couple of relocations to the top of my bookcase (a binder that was too tall, a camera flash and a box of software), I got everything in! I’d love to find somewhere new to put my bright yellow leather compendium and my drawing tablet, but at least they are safe.
I’m exhausted, and I still have 1000+ words of NanoWrimo to write, and tomorrow I have to clean and reorganise my wardrobe and desk, and I really need to a few good hours to work on my Nano. AND I need a couple of days to work on some new things for my art school portfolio. Plus, I have the gym at 8am tomorrow morning, and I’ve got more job applications to fill out.
Why are my Novembers always so ridiculously … ridiculous?!
My hair is so shiny!
Mum, Dad and I drove to Sydney yesterday, mostly for my hair appointment. Mum has a friend who owns the most amazing salon, so we drive up for haircuts. I only had two inches cut off, and I am wondering if I should have got another inch taken off. I’m super excited since, come November 30, I’m having my hair dip-dyed – in pink, of course!
Sydney was seriously cold for November. We had breakfast at this cafe called the Bunker and they had the most bizarre and yummy homemade crumpets with blueberries, rhubarb and golden syrup. It was seriously like the love-child of a pancake, a muffin and a sponge. Very strange, but very delicious.
The Christmas decorations are out with a vengence, as well. There are so many lovely ones – we’ve got a bunch on lay-buy for this Christmas, including an angel giraffe and cow, a minature carved Jim Shore angel and my sister picked out a little Beatles’ Yellow Submarine ornament
I also got to play with an iPad Mini! Apple was slammed, so I tried another electronics store, and the guy had a demo model he went out the back and set up for me. I was pretty dubious about a mini verson of the iPad, but it truly is awesome and a great size. I’ve wanted an ereader for ages – I’ve coopted my mother’s iPad for weeks now, which is driving her mad. I just don’t know if I want an iPad 3 or a mini now. It really depends if I plan to do a lot of drawing on my iPad. I’ll have to do some more research.
Today was spent just hanging out. I read a bizarre book, drew a little and just relaxed. Which is biting me on the butt right now – it’s after 10pm and I still have 2k of Nanowrimo to write!
I hope everyone had a good weekend
Nanowrimo 2012 started today, and man I am no ready. My Binder of Doom (a guide to my own story) wasn’t ready, I’m only a couple of chapters into my chapter-outline, plus my character profiles… they were never written down. UGH. However, it’s not so bad. I’ve already tapped out almost 1800 words, which is thankfully over the daily goal, but still not as many as I was hoping for.
Today was reasonably productive, actually – the gym (which nearly killed me, ugh, 30 degree heat is not fun to exercise in), followed by moving my television off my bookcase and attempting to install my set-top box (my area becomes a digital-TV only area later in the month – and my box records to USB, huffah!), getting my sister to install it for me (ugh, hand me computers, DVD players, video game consoles, any sort of i-product, and I am a tech-whisperer. But set-top boxes and I? Disaster), drawing and colouring a piece of very late Halloween art for my Deviantart page, going to get my eyebrows waxed, typing up my daily Nano and ten minutes on the treadmill.
Tomorrow, I have to add an extra shelf to my bookcase, argue with my new printer (HP software blows; I’m switching to Canon – three months old, and the damn thing refuses to scan), drop off my resume, more Nanowrimo and … well, I won’t add any more to that list, because that is probably more than I’ll get done in the first place.
God, I hope it’s not so hot tomorrow.
I cannot frelling believe that it is already the end of October. How did that happen? I have three days until November. Three. Days.
For me, November is crazy.
And I still have to find some sort of job. I’m marching my resume into the local supermarket this week. I desperately need the money for Christmas and moving to the city for Uni next year – especially if I have such a hard time finding a job in the city.
So for the next three days, I have to move my television and install my super-brand-new digital box (I will have more than five channels, and it will be glorious!), finish off the NanoWrimo Binder of Doom (my personal guide to my novel), add another shelf to my bookcase, vacuum my bedroom, empty and wipe every single surface, drop my resume off, work on my portfolio (it desperately needs updating!) and try to design two brand new website layouts – one for this site, and one for written-word.org, where I’d like to blog and keep notes about writing my novel. And I still really, really want to read just 19 more books (my goal for 2012 was to read 50 new books; 19 more will take me to 100 Ideally, 104, which would mean I was reading two books every week.)
Oh god, there’s definitely not a lot of time left. I have a distinctive feeling that some of these jobs are going to be half-assed.
I’ve been focusing on a lot of negative stuff this last week – more uni work, uni applications, family drama, job hunting (why do all the web design jobs dry up at this type of year?) and all that.
The good things are happening bit by bit – Mum and I are headed to Sydney on Thursday (she’s getting her hair cut, and I’m swapping my iPhone; during my last replacement, they gave me a 32GB instead of a 64GB. Very frustrating when you’re paying extra for the larger memory) and I’m hoping Sailor Moon #7 will be available at Kinokuniya. If not, I’m going to nab Book Two (and maybe Three) of Carole Wilkinson’s Dragonkeeper series. And I read Jay Kristoff’s Stormdancer yesterday (I am a ridiculously fast reader) . It’s really original and an awesome read – and I’m only one book away from my Goodreads Challenge :D.
Plus, I’ve got big plans – I’m hoping to write a wallpaper app for iPhone and iPad, plus I got invited to join Yelp as an Elite member, and I have to get my portfolio for uni done this week. Plus I need to redo my livejournal layout and I have an enormous stack of art to scan in.
I spent yesterday sitting in the sun with my legs in the pool, drawing and listening to loud music. It was such a nice way to spend an afternoon.
I really love being busy.
Well, needless to say, I was super duper sick. The bug bites on my legs, well, some of them had gone black with infection and I saw my doctor on Monday. Now I’m on extra strong antibiotics (that are making me feel terrible) and bandaging up my leg twice a day. I’m still quite ill, honestly, but my leg is so, so much better but recovery is slow, which sucks because I was hoping to go to Sydney to see Vivid this weekend, but it seems like I might have to have a quiet week at home.
I’ve also fallen behind in Nanowrimo, as well. Roughly 6,000 words, I think. I’ll have to get stuck into my Nano this weekend I catch up, plus get ahead since I have one university assessment due on the 20th, plus Mum and I are going to Sydney for one day around the 27th.
And that’s really it. Life is pretty dull when you’ve been as ill as I have been
A flying entry today, because I am seirously sick and seriously tired. I got some bug bites on the back of one of my legs last week – I mean, it’s winter here, I didn’t think I had to worry about biting bugs in the cold. But they got me, and got me good. And unfortunately, they got seriously, seriously infected. The leprosy jokes were all fun and games , as were the natural bite balms but they got worse and now I am seriously ill. Mum was even talking about going up to the hospital earlier, but I am positive I can hold out until tomorrow, when I can see my GP.
And I’ve been chipping away at my Nanowrimo work. I’m trying so hard to stay ahead, since I’m hoping to go to Sydney this Friday until Sunday, and I doubt I’ll get much writing done whilst I’m there, so I’m determined. I’m meeting my personal word count goals so far, but honestly, tonight it was like getting blood from a stone. I hope that’s not a sign that my plot is too thin, or that the rest of the month is going to be a struggle. And to think, I’m planning to do three rounds of Nanowrimo this year – June, August and November
To top everything off, it was my delightful, wonderful, funny mother’s birthday today and I was too sick to do anything! And her present hasn’t arrived! I did, however, manage to get the pizza guys to write ‘happy birthday’ on the box, and put a sparkler in our dessert tart, so maybe it wasn’t a total fail. And since Mum has a cold (what a birthday!), when we’re both better, we’re going out to lunch and I’ll shower Mum with all the love and gifts I had intended to give her today.
Now, my fingers are going kind of numb from all the typing I’ve done today, so I am off to load a book on the iPad and curl up in bed. Hope everyone is particularly snuggly in bed tonight
The Camp Nanowrimo June 2012 Event started today, and I started my potential novel. Yikes. I completely forgot how hard 50, 000 words seems when you’ve just started. Right now I’m all, seriously? Seriously? But I am going to do this. I have to do this. Damnit, I’m going to write for the June event, for August event and for the official November event and I am going to finish.
I am going to be a published fiction writer, I swear to all that is holy. And this is the first step. To be a writer you have to have a manuscript. To have a manuscript, you have to have discipline and determination. I already have the latter, and Nanowrimo will help me develop the former.
But I am, honestly, already worried. I have an essay due for university on June 20th, plus I’m hoping to spend a few days in Sydney at my sister’s apartment to see Vivid, the light installation exhibit that the city runs every year, plus the usual ins and outs of every day life.
God damnit, I’m going to be positive. I can do this, I will do this and it will be amazing.
2,000 words down, just 48,000 to go. And it’s going to be awesome.
I cannot believe that it’s June already. Or almost June, at least.
June is a lot of things. On Sunday, my mum’s birthday. Plus university has started up again, finally. And I’ve discovered Camp Nanowrimo is run in June and August, plus the main event in November, and I really, really want to participate in all three events, so I have at least one manuscript done and ready to prepare for sending out by this summer. I guess that means that blogging might be rather thin for June. I haven’t even written out my outline yet, argh. I have so many ideas that just don’t quite fit together. I need a mental hammer and chisel, honestly.
On the topic of getting things done, Mum and I went to pick me out a new mattress yesterday. I was hoping for an opportunity to bounce on something like the seven year old I really am, but the showroom less factory and more shop than I expected. And I was stunned – everyone raves about how awesome latex beds are, how comfy and long-lasting, plus hypo-allergenic. I thought they were super uncomfortable – like I was stuck in place and couldn’t more! I did find a super squishy spring-mattress that will be coming home when the pay-day gods and the bed frame suppliers’ timetables align. Tis very exciting I can’t imagine what a double bed will feel like – I honestly never thought we’d be able to get one into this room! I expected a day-bed set up, especially since I’m headed to Sydney. Nope, an utterly beautiful double bed!
I really have to get my butt into gear tomorrow. My bedroom still looks like a war zone and there’s no way I can write or study with drawings, books, dvds and clothes stacked on every surface. Winter always makes me sluggish and slack.
And speaking of sluggish, I am off to tuck myself into bed with a book.
It’s been a long week. But aren’t they all? And yet, not much seemed to happen.
I made the decision to excavate my bedroom before university starts on Monday, and it took a lot longer than I planned – it’s really more of Extreme Tetris, trying to fit way too much stuff into half the space. Hopefully this weekend, I’ll get a chance to measure for my new double bed, a wardrobe and chest of drawers. I hope I can make them all fit, because I really want a double bed, and I really need the storage of both a chest of drawers and a wardrobe.
I finally ordered new sneakers for Mum and I! Well, actually the problem was that I had to wait for the online store to get the right sizes in the right models to come into stock. My mother’s pair are awesome, but I’m pretty thrilled with mine, too. They’re bright blue and yellow :marryme:. My current pair are pretty beat up.
And over Saturday and Sunday I still need to …
I also need to outline a new piece of art, but when I went to the local art shop, they wanted $7 for a fineliner. They’ve gone up two dollars in less than a year. SO not happening. I already have to pay a $25.00 mark-up on my drawing books :pissed:. Seriously, in the US they go for $8. I swear, I have to find someone who stocks them cheaper.
What ever happened to relaxing weekends? I think I might relax tonight by loading the Kindle app on my Mum’s iPad and reading until a ridiculous hour.
It seems that April has snuck up on me. 2012 seems to be happening on fast-forward, honestly. I turn around and eleven days of April are already gone. We’ll call it an unscheduled blogging break and keep going from here, okay?
Life is kind of strange at the moment. I went to Sydney with my mother, overnight, and stayed in my sister’s apartment whilst she stayed here and held down the fort. We had a great time – at least, I did. I wrote a list of all the things I needed to do in Sydney, from looking at the new shoes to picking up a new Sims 3 expansion. Easter passed with a slightly lower level of dysfunction that normally plagues my family, thank god.
And now winter has hit. It’s currently absolutely pouring rain, a dark sky made darker with rain clouds and freezing – my ugg boots came out of ‘storage’ (read: out from under my chair) last night. Winter is finally here and I’m not exactly jumping for joy. I prefer cold but not rainy to all-out downpour. But since it is raining, I bought myself a gorgeous new umbrella
A Jonathan Adler umbrella, and I love it – it should arrive tomorrow, at which point it will stop raining because Life enjoys mocking me in that way. I just love the pattern – it reminds me of fish scales and that beautiful Japanese paper I get at the art shop. There is nothing more awesome than a brightly coloured umbrella during a rainy day.
Another thing bugging me at the moment is our neighbours. They are a very loud family – loud as in the seven year old girl and mother think screaming tantrums are perfectly acceptable at any time of the day or night, and the four year old boy is joining in as well. Which means I get woken up anywhere from 4:30am onwards from two tantrum throwing kids who need a good kick and a mother who chooses to scream back at them. It means I have to do most of my sleeping when the 7 year old is in school, which is not healthy. I think I’m going to have to say something to them, because the amount of murderous screaming that goes on is disturbing the entire street. (The next time I hear that girl screaming, ‘NO NO NO’, I’m going to hang out the bathroom window and scream, “Yes, YES, YES!!’ back at her. Then we’ll see what happens. :evil:)
I’ve also been spending a lot of time over on Goodreads – I’ll link to my profile later. I’ve also started a 50 (New) Books in 2012 challenge, and am 16 books in, which is crazy, since I only started in March. Out of those 16 books, only one of them sucked beyond all measure, so I think that’s a pretty good ‘awesome book’ percentage.
I’m also been working on my newest project – turning Written-Word.Org into a writing slash YA novel review site. Honestly, coding WordPress themes hasn’t quite clicked yet. I can code HTML and even a little PHP and CSS in my sleep, but WordPress eludes me. I guess that means I need more practice. So it will take longer to set up than I anticipated but that also gives me more time to come up with content. I also need to get my ass into gear and get my professional site and a business card designed and ready to go. I’ve got until late May before university classes start back up, which should be plenty of time.
Now I have a big bowl of udon and some allergy pills waiting for me; I know, I know, it’s a drunken whirligig of fun here tonight
I’ll admit something.
I still get excited logging into WordPress.
It’s really stupid but from 2000 onwards, I coded my sites by hand. That’s hardly amazing, I know. But when everyone else moved to Cutenews or used programs like Dreamweaver and the like, I couldn’t work out how (my only defence was that my hosting service was kind of garbage and I had no cpanel). In the height of my web-empire, I was running around 40 sites (a lot of those were fanlistings) and updating them by hand with an FTP program.
Finally, in 2007, I converted to PHP (it was like magic! A header and footer that I never had to update!) I thought that made life easy.
I was wrong. I ? Wordpress. WordPress is the Harry Potter of the Internet, at least for me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m thrilled I know how to hand code a site – it’s proven nothing but useful – but I utterly love not having to hand code every blog entry I write, and being able to assign tags and categories – and having actual archives! (Seriously, I’ve been using the Wayback Machine to find my old blog entries and input them into WordPress :geek:)
But one thing that I miss is that I had a single base design that I just altered with each new layout, depending on the size and design of the header. Having to build my WordPress design from scratch – and track down Widgets and Plugins for certain functions (rather than coding the details by hand – it really is the little things in life! XD) has taken long than I thought.
So, my To Do list to get this website finished:
::Neo-voice:: Whoa. It’s already a new month.
Well, I went to Sydney today, with Mum. Dad drove us up there but he had to go to work. Anyways, I got heaps of stuff (more than I should have…) including a pair of very blue Skechers (can we all say Joshua Alba? Yes, apparently I’m the only girl in Chatswood that wishes to keep Joshua employed. NO ONE stocks them. Rebel Sport only had like three different styles of Skechers… grrr) and a Paul Frank pencil case, a Roxy scarf and multiple socks.
Ohh, and this funky Roxy keyring.
It was a great day. And outside Harvey Norman, was this huge sign, “Enter the Matrix” (obviously advertising the game of the same name.) And it was 3D and made of styrofoam! I want it! I know I’m freakishly obessed. I still don’t own the Animatrix thought, damnit.
Um, whatelse? Mum took me to Sushi Train for lunch, and that was so much fun! It was awesome, I love Sushi Train! It was so cool, but we both ate way too much. And we had green tea! I love green tea.
I’ve done a major Network update, with the next round of fanlistings being added soon. I’m also about forty seconds from making a start on another layout – yes, another Matrix one. I love working with the screen caps! Yes, a Matrix layout, and then maybe a Tomb Raider one. I did try a Lizzie McGuire one, but it didn’t work; I’ll wait till it comes out on DVD and make my own caps. That should be fun.
I wrote a new fic! Who I Am. It’s a Faith-centric piece (from Buffy) and it’s not too bad, really. Pretty good considering the first BtVS fic I’ve written in four years…
Sleep is good…
I’m so not in the mood to discuss Sydney. Basically, we drove up late, I went and saw Reloaded for the third time, went to bed and on Sunday, we did copious amounts of shopping. And I came home sick. Other random facts about my trip to Sydney: we saw Maid in Manhatten, which is pretty good. Lunch and dinner at the hotel was revolting. Breakfast was quite good, at a French patisserie at Wooloomooloo. We saw Russell Crowe’s $12 million apartment, and I think it’s pretty overrated. Mosman is an excellent place to show. I got a new teddy bear named Cookie. I love bears. He’s so huggable!
I have to go back to school tomorrow. Does everyone know what that means? *g* Yeah, The Source Code will be getting some updates. Gah, I hate school. Or, I hate the people. The classes aren’t too bad. My art task this semester is excellent, because I can twist it around to be all about Trinity, Syl and Lara Croft. Gender and Identity. Basically, my piece is going to be one of two designs…
The first is a painting of a girl staring at something. Around her are pictures of female action heros. And over the top of her face, I’m printing off some lyrics onto clear plastic and sticking them on. I don’t know what song yet – any suggestions? But this idea is to focus that girls are getting more of a go as the action hero.
The second idea is to paint The Lady in Red leaning against the wall, and hand write the lyrics to “Fighter” onto it. This is the whole idea that even though there are a lot of successful women in the world, there are those that are struggling. (For those not in the know, the Lady in Red is sort of a blonde prostitute-ish figure… oh, go rent the Matrix.)
I went on a site-building bender today. Different Side of Me is an archive of my Buffy fic. I quite like this site, currently featuring Eliza Dushku.
Also added Wallpapers, Livejournal and Forum icons to the “You” section. I’ll make more icons soon (all icons can be used for the new version of MSN – Version 6) – if you have any requests, I’m more than happy to try and make you an icon. Just ask :)
Wow, longer update than planned…
I’ve just realised I have a whole day at home and not a bloody thing to do. I’m feeling a lot better today and totally wired!
So, I’m chatting to mussed and Nicky. I’ll improve my site some more, and make some buttons for other people out of sheer boredom. And I’ll finish PissOff. Before some rabid Dark Angel fan cuts off my face with a cork-screw… I know, that was a revolting mental image and I apologise.
I’m going to Sydney! tomorrow for the night. Obviously not as much fun as it would be if I wasn’t sick, but I mean, Sydney for a whole night! Shopping and excitement! I’m hoping I can get a copy of the Animatrix, because I want to make more screencaps.
I’m just finishing my bit of the Mary Sue epilogue so I can send it to Ally. ::blushes:: totally my fault it isn’t posted by now, but I blame my muses. But it’s sent and I’m an almost free girl. Very chilly here. Cake would be nice. Or pizza. Huh, now Ally’s (who is Nicky) is going to bed, damnit :( I’ll talk to her tonight, I guess I’m going to make some more buttons and do some more work on this site.
I got a nasty shock today when I went to The Hardline. The HLers are such a nice group of people. Really. Friendly, honest and just some of the nicest people I’ve had the privledge of knowing. And someone came and totally abused everyone’s trust. I definatly think some of the coppertops that join will be taken with a grain of salt. Danascully summed it up, “So goodnight, Hardliners… and remember, we’re still a family of sorts, even when one of us turns traitor. Especially then. Aww, sweet. But true.
And I want to apologise about my rant last night. I was sick and feeling quite fragile, which probably wasn’t the best time to be checking flames. I know, my logic is flawed. But yeah. That fic was meant to be a parody, I’m sorry very few other people realised this, but yeah. I’m not getting back into it. Lexie + Fragile and Sick = Unneeded Rant.
Hiccups suck. Honest. I’ve had them for … 39 minutes. They are irritating me beyond belief.
I am making buttons. And lj icons. I just get sidetracked. Badly. Also, adding some fanart. And some more fic. And a ‘language’ section so that people can understand my specially designed brand of slang. Yeah, I’m bored out of my skull. I mean, I’ve almost finished “How To Piss Off An X5 In Eleven Easy Steps” which is a monument to how completely bored I am. It’s exciting that I’m finishing it though. I’ve been working on it for ages, and ages.
I’m off to work on T-L and finish PissOff.
I had the blood test done today and the results come back Friday. I hope I haven’t got glandular fever because that would be icky. Wow, that was eloquent. But it definately wouldn’t be a good thing.
I’ve watched all … four Aladdin videos we own and I wish wish wish I owned more. But Robin Williams didn’t do the voice for Genie in the short episodes, which is disappointing. But I totally get why he didn’t.
Hmm, what else? I’ve been kinda sick to do anything particularly spectacular. I read a little fic. I wrote a little. I’m split three ways right now – I’m writing a Trinity saga that sucks. I’m writing a Faith saga that sucks – with style. And I’m writing the final chapter of a Dark Angel. Pfft. A lot of the flames “Divinity” has gotten so far are really, really nasty. And I know that is the point of a flame, but if it was from someone really excellent at writing, I’d hang my head and understand that, yes I will never rock as much as they do. But some of these delinquents can’t string a sentence together which depresses me.
Now, I will pull rank. I am a good writer. Aren’t I a snobby vain little brat, telling everyone that? Well, it’s true. For a while there, I was single handedly keeping certain areas of Dark Angel fic alive (now Jacey’s joined me in the plight of a decent Jondy/Zack or Syl/Krit). Really, a mark of a good reader is to see past the Mary Sue and see if the writing is quality. I tried to make the story as insipid as possible. Oh well…
So, answers to questions I’ve been asked in my flames. Do I go by the nickname “Divinity”? No, I don’t. I wouldn’t ever. Why did I name my character Divinity? Because of two reasons – A) Divinity sounds similar to Trinity, which adds to the Mary-Sue-ess. And B) Divinity is my most hated class at school.
And, I think Keanu Reeves is hot. I think he’s great as Neo. But, as so eloquently put by Meg/Froggie, I don’t want to line myself up to bang Neo. As far as I’m concerned, that’s Trinity’s job. Because I hate Divinity with the fire of a thousand suns too! I don’t like the girl.
I’m just waiting for someone to burn-inate Divinity, Ariella and B’randii
Went to the doctor’s today. Either I’ve got a virus or, possibly, glandular fever. Blah. But I get at least 2 more days off. Normally, a godsend. Now? Wonderful. More excrutiating boredom.
I attacked the Source Code some more and now, I’m kicking Twisted-Logic into shape. Working on a series of new buttons – so I can ditch the black and white Trinity one because I detest it. I’ve also made a couple of questionable Matrix lj icons, and some 64×64 forum buttons. I’ll post those up some time today, I hope.
You know what? I have absolutely nothing to say. I’m going to write fic instead.
Gah! I’m trying to update T-L’s fanlistings, and I keep uploading the pages to the wrong site. *Tears* God, today is sucking already and I just got up. Luckily, the fanlistings mistake can be fixed. It’s the principle of the thing!
I went bowling yesterday – the power of Panadol still exists! It was kinda cool. There was the jukebox thing, which played the song and the video clip on the TVs that were around. We played heaps, except my sister kept choosing really old songs – Like “Drop The Pilot” and “Senses Working Overtime.” It was very evil of her. Anyways, my cousin Amanda won the first game, and I won the second. It was fun.
What else? Absolutely nothing. Being sick is the horrible-est thing in the world, and I’m stuck at home, cleaning. Because Mum and Amellia left at the crack of dawn, I’m meant to clean up after them. AGH! How irritating.
I really need to write another Matrix fic. I’ve started The Sweetest Thing, which I’m beginning to hate passionately, but meh. It’s seven pages I’ve already written. I like writing Trinity but I’m not very good at it. Maybe I should become a professional Mary-Sue writer, I seem to be good at that *hl*
I should really get offline so Mum can ring – I seem to have misplaced my mobile phone, hmph. I was going to do the Friday Five now, but the new set isn’t up yet. Damn timezones!
I was too sick to go and shop in Sydney. There is no smilie sad enough for me to upload to show my pain.
I’m going to start working on my new original fiction. Basically, a teenage girl dies. And her step sister reflects on her life. I’m wondering if it should be some shocking terminal illness or a murder. Who knows? But we’ll see how it goes. It might actually get somewhere other than FictionPress.Net, which would be a blessing.
And my other story is a sci-fi thing. Sort of what I thought the Matrix would be (let me put it this way; I couldn’t have been more off the money.) But it’s Matrix cross with The Mummy cross with Tomb Raider story. I doubt it will get any further than FictionPress.Net.
The secret handshake bit would be funny. We’d do some loser thing like the “live long and prosper” sign. Of course, if we were nominated in the same category, the first-ever Oscars fistfight could break out. That would be equal parts amusing and shocking.
Okay, to bed, to bed, to bed I go Being sick bites.
Damn. Oh well, I suppose it gives me time to think up a name for the Apoc fanlisting. Hmm. Any suggestions?
Okay, I missed the Friday Five, so here they are!
1. Do you remember your first best friend? Who was it? Ooh, when I was in preschool. Thomas. We were meant to go to school together but my family moved.
2. Are you still in touch with this person? No
3. Do you have a current close friend? Yup. Jacey and Emelie, Nicky and Emi.
4. How did you become friends with these people? Jacey and I met through a mutal friend, Shannon. Emelie and I used to go to school together and I met Emi and Nicky at the Hardline, where we all hang out.
5. Is there a friend from your past that you wish you were still in contact with? Why? Nope. I try to keep in contact with all my old friends, but they weren’t interested in keeping in contact with me. Though, I would like to still be friends with Myf. Myf rocked.
Nicky, Emi and I have been working on intentional Mary-Sue Matrix fics! *Gasp* I know, the horror! If you would like to read them and use them as an excuse to flame us (not that you need an excuse, of course) go here.
I also added a picture of my cat, Latte, to “Lexie-Vision.” I’ll be adding a Random Gallery soon, I think…
I’m working on a fanlisting collective slowly. I’ve added 7 Lizzie McGuire fanlistings to my “fanlistings” page and for anyone looking for fanlistings updates, I’ll be working on those tonight. Anyways, I have to go and do real life stuff.