Hello There, 2019

Wow. I cannot believe how fast time flies sometimes. Ever since I finished high school, I’ve noticed that it moves so fast. It makes sense – now that I’m not stuck in math classes, what feels like ten minutes is really an hour instead of the other way around.

I think my Top 9 definitely shows most of my year – my trip to Melbourne with my mother to see the Alice in Wonderland exhibition, some of my art (which I ended up moving to its own Instagram account), our dogs, and various points of interest. I think its kind of hilarious that my Top 9 always makes my Top 9 – very meta. But there are a few things that have happened – or are happening – that I can’t wait to write about!

One of my resolutions for this year involves getting this blog back up and running. I started archiving all my old blog posts from when I was a teenager and hand-coded all my blog entries. I had no archival system back then, just a bunch of index.html pages that I’m sure are long gone, so I’m relying on the Wayback Machine to fill in a lot of the gaps. But I’m thinking of archiving a lot of posts on here as private – sometimes you just need to declutter and start fresh.

It means that things are going to be a little chaotic as I work on my Secret Project, and get TL whipped back into shape – I am not quite sure what I was thinking with my tag and category system, but they are kind of crazy. So bear with me whilst I get started KonMari-ing my website.

So, those were my 20s.

Tomorrow is my thirtieth birthday.

That is absolutely ridiculous. There is no way I should be thirty. Thirty implies so much, and I’m just a slightly more capable version of my teenage self. Maybe your twenties are more of a state of mind?

I don’t think anyone likes having regrets, and I certainly never wanted any. Are there things I’d do differently since I graduated high school? Oh yeah. But I think that most of it, I’d try to keep the same. I’m about to graduate from a degree I enjoyed 90% of. I’ve made some wonderful friends (oh boy, was I due!) I’m still a mental health disaster, but that can be worked on.

I hate the way I stress over my birthday – over incomplete goals, or the idea that something is less than perfect, when a birthday shouldn’t be stressful. I suppose I stress over everything though – anything that can be considered a ‘deadline’, and I freak out.

So how did I spend the last day of my twenties? Cleaning my apartment  :yum: It’s a mental thing, having a perfectly tidy and clean apartment on my birthday. The gift I give myself. I have no idea how I managed to wrangle it, but it took 6 hours, and it’s so tidy!

Tomorrow, I’m spending the day with my sister – mini-golf and then to the movies to finally see the new Thor film. Oh, and I’m dragging her to see ‘Christmas land’ in both Myer and David Jones, because I love Christmas decorating.

It’s going to be a good day. And whilst my twenties weren’t the laugh-riot I hoped for, or anything resembling anyone elses’, they were mine, and that thought is actually kind of comforting.

Lilibet is Home!

Miss Lilibet Beatrice arrived yesterday! She’s 8 weeks and 1 day old, and just impossibly adorable. Just look at that cute little face!

So far, she’s a big fan of food, paper bags, her new plush flea Freddie, her ‘snuggler’ bed (which is really intended for cats, but she adores it) and whichever one our cats runs into her path (I’ve been watching her on Facetime 😆 ) Not so fussed on being out in public, though. We had to walk up and pick up some puppy food at the local pet shop, and she was not thrilled about that.

Can’t wait for two weeks to go by so I can go to my parents’ and cuddle the little cutie :marryme:

Lili-Bee

Introducing Miss Lilibet Beatrice, the newest addition to the family. My mum is over the moon – we’ve been looking for a beagle puppy for awhile now. We get to pick up the little cutie next weekend – and I get a cuddle before they head back home, since I won’t be back at my mum’s place for another few weeks.

“I decided to go join the birds. I eat lots of bread already and I’m tired of fighting.”

Back to real life tomorrow, ho hum. I came home to my mother’s house to do some pet-sitting, and attend my uncle’s birthday lunch, and now that’s all done, I’m headed back to Sydney.

It’s going to be one of those very long weeks – class on Tuesday from ten til noon, then again at five til seven, plus lunch with friends, and a coffee-date with another friend. Then on Wednesday, a haircut on the other side of the city finally (I’m beginning to look like some kind of fluffy marsupial; I love my fringe, but gosh it takes a lot more upkeep than layers), and a class from one til two. Thursday is my day off, but I have a paper due next Monday, plus half a ton of work on my honors project that it’s more like a study-day. Friday, my mother is coming down for the day; Saturday, I’m headed to a knitting workshop, and Sunday I have to finish my paper. It’s an exciting life, that’s for sure 😉

I know I just finished my summer break, but I wish I could rewind time, just live in a happy bubble, where I could write and swim and draw and read. I don’t feel like functioning yet. Though behaving like a functioning adult isn’t something that I feel like doing much of the time. I kind of have a level of functionality that works for me, but isn’t really sustainable for earning a living or socialising, sadly. But I made a promise last year, that I would put myself out there, would try some new stuff. And it worked! I definitely got out of my comfort zone; same verse this year, definitely.

And now I have to go and somehow cram all my things into a single suitcase and backpack.  :kiss:

Leila

On February 17th, my friend Leila passed away, after a hard-fought battle with cancer. Despite the distance between us since we went through grade nine together, this has absolutely crushed me. So, I’m going to take a note out of Zoe‘s playbook, and tell you about her.

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“Have you considered any of the other major religions? They’re all pretty much the same.”

So, I turned 29.

And I finished my last Semester 2 as an undergrad.

I’m not sure which makes me more nervous, to be completely honest. 😯 The last assessment for my first semester project nearly killed me, I swear. I think, all up, it had to be 30,000 words, and took me until 3am to finalise. And then 10 minutes before I was going to present? I got an approval for an extension due to illness. I went ahead and did it anyway, because no. I did not want to wait another week with it hanging over my head.

I think I left my body during it, actually. But it’s done. And I can’t have screwed it up too badly. I don’t think. :ohwell:

My birthday was on November 7th, and a very quiet day. Mum came down and we had an amazing lunch, and Mum brought me some small gifts. The rest of my gifts (most of which are books! :geek: ) and my official birthday cake will occur when Mum and I can coordinate (pizza, salad, champagne and cake!)

Right now, I’m taking ten days off to relax – something I sorely need to do. Maybe write some bad fan fiction, and do some bad fanart? Something with no academic or profitable value 😉