The Camp Nanowrimo June 2012 Event started today, and I started my potential novel. Yikes. I completely forgot how hard 50, 000 words seems when you’ve just started. Right now I’m all, seriously? Seriously? But I am going to do this. I have to do this. Damnit, I’m going to write for the June event, for August event and for the official November event and I am going to finish.

I am going to be a published fiction writer, I swear to all that is holy. And this is the first step. To be a writer you have to have a manuscript. To have a manuscript, you have to have discipline and determination. I already have the latter, and Nanowrimo will help me develop the former.

But I am, honestly, already worried. I have an essay due for university on June 20th, plus I’m hoping to spend a few days in Sydney at my sister’s apartment to see Vivid, the light installation exhibit that the city runs every year, plus the usual ins and outs of every day life.

God damnit, I’m going to be positive. I can do this, I will do this and it will be amazing.

2,000 words down, just 48,000 to go. And it’s going to be awesome.