Hello There, 2019

Wow. I cannot believe how fast time flies sometimes. Ever since I finished high school, I’ve noticed that it moves so fast. It makes sense – now that I’m not stuck in math classes, what feels like ten minutes is really an hour instead of the other way around.

I think my Top 9 definitely shows most of my year – my trip to Melbourne with my mother to see the Alice in Wonderland exhibition, some of my art (which I ended up moving to its own Instagram account), our dogs, and various points of interest. I think its kind of hilarious that my Top 9 always makes my Top 9 – very meta. But there are a few things that have happened – or are happening – that I can’t wait to write about!

One of my resolutions for this year involves getting this blog back up and running. I started archiving all my old blog posts from when I was a teenager and hand-coded all my blog entries. I had no archival system back then, just a bunch of index.html pages that I’m sure are long gone, so I’m relying on the Wayback Machine to fill in a lot of the gaps. But I’m thinking of archiving a lot of posts on here as private – sometimes you just need to declutter and start fresh.

It means that things are going to be a little chaotic as I work on my Secret Project, and get TL whipped back into shape – I am not quite sure what I was thinking with my tag and category system, but they are kind of crazy. So bear with me whilst I get started KonMari-ing my website.

So, those were my 20s.

Tomorrow is my thirtieth birthday.

That is absolutely ridiculous. There is no way I should be thirty. Thirty implies so much, and I’m just a slightly more capable version of my teenage self. Maybe your twenties are more of a state of mind?

I don’t think anyone likes having regrets, and I certainly never wanted any. Are there things I’d do differently since I graduated high school? Oh yeah. But I think that most of it, I’d try to keep the same. I’m about to graduate from a degree I enjoyed 90% of. I’ve made some wonderful friends (oh boy, was I due!) I’m still a mental health disaster, but that can be worked on.

I hate the way I stress over my birthday – over incomplete goals, or the idea that something is less than perfect, when a birthday shouldn’t be stressful. I suppose I stress over everything though – anything that can be considered a ‘deadline’, and I freak out.

So how did I spend the last day of my twenties? Cleaning my apartment¬† :yum: It’s a mental thing, having a perfectly tidy and clean apartment on my birthday. The gift I give myself. I have no idea how I managed to wrangle it, but it took 6 hours, and it’s so tidy!

Tomorrow, I’m spending the day with my sister – mini-golf and then to the movies to finally see the new Thor film. Oh, and I’m dragging her to see ‘Christmas land’ in both Myer and David Jones, because I love Christmas decorating.

It’s going to be a good day. And whilst my twenties weren’t the laugh-riot I hoped for, or anything resembling anyone elses’, they were mine, and that thought is actually kind of comforting.